Someone's Watching Over Me

Someone's Watching Over Me
Hilary Duff

I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
But something pulled me back
A voice of reason, I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight

[Chorus:]
So I won’t give up
No, I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

I’ve seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment, to my dreams

[Chorus]

It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you’ll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe...

That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe...

That someone’s watching over,
Someone's watching over,
Someone's watching over me
(Yeah yeah, oh oh...)
Someone's watching over me

Jottings:
It's 4.30am now as I type this. I've just finished a major portion of my heavy assignments. Though it seems as if I'm done, I have to admit that the journey of frustrations and mental blockage has just begun.

But just as I was listening to some songs while doing up my assignment, this song just caught my attention. No doubt, the melody was catchy; but what made me search for the lyrics was the bits and pieces I hear in the song. Inspiring it is.

I just realized that in every person, be they strong or weak emotionally, there will always be a part within that desires companionship. Though many mask this need (which I don't think it foolish, for it is a defensive mechanism), they fail to experience the care and love they desperately need.

Yet, should they do otherwise, there will be a huge possibility they be hurt; and should such continue, they would withdraw to self-pity, solitude...

We need somebody to love. We need somebody to care. We need somebody to continually tell us that we are loved and treasured - no matter how rusted we are.

But face the truth, nobody out there will specially do such a benevolent philanthropic thing for us, because they are experiencing the same thing too.

At the end of the day, it boils down to this: how much do we love ourselves. If we knew how to cherish ourselves, if we knew how to love ourselves, if we knew how important we are to ourselves, then we wouldn't first seek comfort from others; we would be assured that we are loved, because we first love ourselves.

Love, then, begins from ourselves.

Let us conquer our worse enemies - ourselves.

Sing

Singing isn't an easy art; it takes experience, creativity and control.

I need to improve my singing. I sound nice if reverb is added to my voice, and a tad of bass boost, but if I just plainly sing, I don't sound that good.

So what's the plan?

Live with it, and practice more! That's the big plan.

Composing a song is very simple when you have the idea, the words, the melody, the harmony, and the skill. But when you lack any one of them, you are basically... stuck.

I have been downloading a lot of music lately, primary to feed my ears for more music. I find myself in a state of stagnance. No matter what I hit on the keyboard... it seems as if all are similar. And trust me, that is not something you would want to happen to you.

I need to write one more song to fill up my EP, but I have no idea how is it going to sound like, what will be the words, what will the message be.

There are times when I sit back and question myself the purpose of composing. Do I want to please myself, prove to myself that I can compose? Or do I want to use the messages I have within me to impact the audience?

That is when striking the balance is needed.

So there I was, sitting at the piano and these words came to me. I have no idea why these words, and I have totally no idea how will they turn out to sound like. But anyways, here are the words:

We had laughed at each other's jokes
Smiled at each other's looks
We had learnt to care to share
Though many times, unintentionally
We hurt
Each other with our words
We learn to accept
To understand

But things do change
That's the way life is
Don't you know that change can't be eluded
So why do you look away
When it is me who is near
Why do you cast a frown
When it is me who is near

This is just an idea. It has not materialized into a song. But looking at the direction of the words are going, I don't think this tentative song will be suitable for the EP.

I still need inspiration.

Perhaps it is due to the many months of composing songs for Entangled, the Music that had paled my ability to write songs.

Inspiration, where art thou?

Finally

Finally
Fergie

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme, crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside
That there would come that day
That I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend as I watched it unfold
This classic story told, I left it in the cold
Walking through unopened doors that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool, just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter, I just ran away
Put on another face,
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give up me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I had made

Finally got out of my own way
I've finally started living for today
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

Mmmm....
Finally, finally

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Oooh oh
Finally, finally
Finally

Jottings:
Beautiful vocals, with a tad of reverb.

And I just realized how difficult it is achieve a good recording. Lots to look into.

New Inspiration

I need new inspirations. I need. I need. I need. I need.

I want a song accompanied only by the guitars. I need inspiration. Problem is, none is coming! Help!

Change

Music has taken it's toll on me.

No more writing Christianized songs; my songs are evolving in terms of lyrics and music feel. I begin showing more emotions in my lyrics and music. I suppose that as I changed in my environment, my style of writing songs change too.

More songs to come. I hope I am able to write more songs. But that is also in itself a risk to me. Because in order for me to write songs well, I have to experience a rush of emotions or I've to experience something bad, that often triggers my resentful past.

I hope that writing songs need not go through such difficulty.

What am I ranting about? Sigh.

Let the Rain Fall

Let the Rain Fall
Music and Lyrics by Jonathan Chu

[Verse 1]
The sun is shining
Glaring on your skin
Seems like your yesterdays and fears are sinking in
You need redemption
From your insecurities
And stress and pain and hurts

The clouds close in
And droplets fall
You step into the rain
Cry out your all
Let the sun go
Let your pain fade
Let your jade-d self go
Away

[Chorus]
Let the rain fall
Let the tears dry
Let everything you believed in
Slip you by
Let yourself fall
It's useless to cry
Let the rain wash your pain
Give you reason to smile again
Let the rain fall

[Verse 2]
The days went by
The smiles flashed by
All don't mean a thing
All just worth forgetting
None tell you that
There's love out there
(That) there's a chance to be accepted

And by shunned from all cruelty of life
Let the sun go
Let your pain fade
Let your jade-d self go away

[Bridge]
Let the rain
Let the rain fall
(Let the past go)

Face It

Face It
Music and Lyrics by Jonathan Chu

Spent your time hoping
For a chance to be understood
To be loved for who you are
To have someone to
Stay by your side
Until the fear
Subsides

Spent your days wishing
For someone to sit by your side
Love you more despite your insecurities
Hear you hum your sweet melody
Despite how entangled you are

But just face the truth
Superficiality is all that's wanted
Who you truly are don't count
Only who you are to them
Face it

They say
"It's great to have you"
"I love you" or
"Thank you"
But despise you when they see
What is true inside of you

They say you've changed
You're selfish and foolish
And criticize you and your actions and your words
Just because you're different
They conclude you're not good enough
And they only seek for you
When there's something they need from you

So face the truth
All friendships are meant to be at arm's length
Who you truly are don't count
Only who you are to them
Just face the truth
You're not good enough to join in
Who you can be don't count
Only who you can be to and for them
Face it

Face it
Face it

People don't love you for you
Face it
People don't love you for you
Face it
People don't love you for you
Face it
People don't love you for you
Face it

So face the truth
All friendships are meant to be at arm's length
Who you truly are don't count
Only who you are to them
Just face the truth
You're not good enough to join in
Who you can be don't count
Only who you can be to and for them
Face it
Face it
Face it

Meninggikan Nama Tuhanku

Meninggikan Nama Tuhanku
Lyrics and Music by Jonathan Chu

[Verse]
Di dalam hidup ini
Ku sembah Kau Tuhan
Hanya Tuhan sahaja
Ku sembah Kau Tuhan

[Chorus]
Meninggikan nama Tuhanku
Meninggikan nama Tuhanku
Ku tinggikan namaMu dengan suaraku
Ku hanya sembah Tuhan

[Bridge]
KeranaMu
T'lah mengubahkan hidupku
Memberiku
Tenaga untuk berjuang
KeranaMu
Oh Tuhanku
Aku mampu menyanyi untukMu
KeranaMu

Great Is Your Reward

Great Is Your Reward
Lyrics and Music by Jonathan Chu

[Verse]
Have you been tired to serve?
Have you been frustrated 'bout situations in life?
Have you been so sad about areas in your life?
Jesus, He's there for you.

[Pre-Chorus]
Even problems arise, thunder may strike
Rest assure He hears your cries
Frustrations, tiredness, sorrows, and cries
Jesus hears them all, He hears your cries
Jesus, He's there for you

[Chorus]
Do you know
It hurts Him more to see you cry
For you're His star in the sky
A precious jewel in His eyes
A precious priceless child of Christ

Just press on and run the race
Don't stop or slow down your pace
Aim towards the crown of life
To hear the words
"Well done, good and faithful child,
Great is your reward."

Untangle You

Untangle You
Lyrics and Music by Jonathan Chu

[Verse 1]
You walk across the streets with no one by your side
You want to be true but your secrets you still hide
Selfish people care only for selfish purposes
Nobody understands, nobody cares enough

You tell yourself, "I'll walk this road alone."
You build a wall, you shield yourself
Unbreakable wall has somehow numbed you
To everything in the world
Long forgotten how to receive love again

[Chorus]
Listen to me, forget your entanglement
Come here with me, I will untangle you
Bring your heart to life again
See the sunrise of hope again
There is hope I assure you

[Verse 2]
So what if they say you are selfish and foolish
So what if they criticize you and your actions
Isn't self-defense proper, isn't it so?
I don't blame you, I won't, I won't.

[Verse 3]
Pitch darkness is all you see
Nowhere to go, no one to hold your hand
Somehow you've fallen with no way to untangle yourself
You seek, but none was found
But...

That's My Dream

That's My Dream
Lyrics and Music by Jonathan Chu

[Verse 1]
Everybody has something to do in this life
It is something he yearns for
Or something she has passion for
It may be getting a hubby
Or singing a melody
Writing a rhapsody
Or playing like Tchaikovsky
As long as that's what you want to do
That's your dream (4x)

[Verse 2]
I have found my dream all I want to do is sing
Under the lights have my face beam
As I sing, I fly as if I have wings
That's your dream (4x)

It may be living til ninety
Or narrate a story
Become a mommy
Or be somebody
As long as that's what you want to do
That's your dream (4x)

[Bridge]
If you haven't found your dream
All you need to do is search inside of you
Think about what you always do
Then that's your dream
That's your dream
That's your dream
Dream, dream, dream
That's your dream

The Ballad of Entanglement

The Ballad of Entanglement
Lyrics by Suit Lin and Jonathan Chu
Music by Jonathan Chu

[Cassandra]
Just one sign, just one sign
The dream I want can be mine
Just one sign, just one sign
The comfort I need I can find
Teach me how to carry on
Give me strength to go on
Just one sign, just one sign
The dream I want can be mine

[Bernardo]
Just one truth, just this truth
A hurt that keeps on coming

[Desiree]
But the truth, but this truth
Won't change who you are inside

[Bernardo (Desiree)]
Just this truth (but this truth)
Just this truth (but this truth)
Stops me from living (Won't push me aside)

[Bernardo & Desiree]
Cause of you, cause of you
We can find, we can find
Strength to triumph

[Anita]
Just one day, just one day
Give me a chance to say goodbye
Just one day, just one day
Help me give life one more try
Teach me how to carry on
Give me strength to go on
Just one day, just one day
Give me a chance to say goodbye

[Edmond]
Just one push, just one push
Her dreams and their lives I can crush
I can silence her sweet melody
I can have my sweet revenge
Though I see Clara in her...

Such foolishness I must be sober
Such foolishness I must be sober
Come what may, come what may
They will pay

[Anita]
Just one day

[Cassandra]
Just one sign

[Bernardo]
Just one truth

[Desiree]
But the truth

[Edmond]
Just one push

[Anita]
Just one day

[Cassandra]
Just one sign

[Bernardo]
Just one truth

[Desiree]
But the truth

[Edmond]
Just one push

[Anita]
Give me a chance to say goodbye

[Cassandra]
This dream I want is now mine

[Bernardo]
My past I can leave behind

[Desiree]
Who you are won't push me aside

[Edmond]
At last, vengeance will be mine!

[All]
Such is her atonement
Such is his lament
Such is their entanglement
Such is our entanglement
Our entanglement
Our entanglement!

Silence

Silence
Lyrics by Suit Lin and Jonathan Chu
Music by Jonathan Chu

[Bernardo]
Cassandra, Cassandra
I know you may think otherwise
And my words to you will never suffice
Perhaps to you everything I say is lies
Perhaps it may be too late to apologize

[Cassandra]
Silence, nothing but silence
Have you done anything for me
Have you done anything I can see
That you care for me
That you love me

Silence, nothing but silence
You left me here, entangled
Alone and in pain, entangled
In fear and in shame, entangled

[Bernardo]
Cassandra, Cassandra

[Cassandra]
Do you see the scars on my hands

[Bernardo]
What else can I say to convince you

[Cassandra]
Do you see entanglement in my hands

[Bernardo]
What I say you do not understand

[Cassandra]
What you say I can no longer understand

[Bernardo]
It is not that I don't care to make you understand

[Cassandra]
It's because you don't hear me

Anymore, anymore (2x)
Look at my entanglement
Can you see my pain
Can you feel my hurt

Maybe not, maybe not
Maybe it's better to be alone
You are and will always be silent

[Bernardo (Cassandra)]
You don't know (You don't know)
You can't know (You can't know)
You don't know
You can't know
My own entangled scars
I have my own pain
I have my own hurts
I have my own pain and hurts